Ok, I have neglected my blog for long enough. I’m really sorry about that, really. Mostly sorry to myself because so much has happened in the last 2 months and I haven’t been able to process it by writing about it and sharing it… I could blame it on the sporatic access to the internet, busy-ness resulting in not enough sleep, or a thousand other things… but I’d rather just *start* somewhere, anywhere, and begin writing about some of the things I’ve been doing and thinking. It’s better than nothing, I’ll just take one thing at a time…
A really special excursion yesterday
Yesterday we ended a 12 hour excursion with a trip to the Observatory to look at the stars at night. It was sooo clear and soo pretty. We saw Jupiter, the largest planet, Vega Star, and a galactic cloud through the telescope. But the most amazing thing was just looking up to see the entire sky FULL of stars. Some had really strong refraction of light, that it literally looked like it was twinkling, others were clustered together and looked like they were so close to each other, but so far away from us. The galactic cloud reminded me of what a particle looks like in your blood when you look under a microscope. Isn’t it amazing that some of the largest things and smallest things in life have similar patterns/shapes/fractals?!
Another highlight was climbing the Ambert fortress and looking out over the vast gorges of the Aragatz mountain slopes. Thank goodness we were told to bring warm clothes with us, and thank goodness we layered up. The afternoon started with short sleeved sunny weather, when we were escorted around one of the Armenia Tree Project nursuries by easily the most passionate agricultural connosiuers I’ve ever met in my life, only a short time after that, we found ourselves eating lunch on a field looking out over Ararat and other gorgeous valleys, definitely sweater weather, and shortly after that, around sunset, we found ourselves climbing up the ancient stone pathways of the Ambert fortress, burried in the slopes of the Aragatz mountainside - who’s roads are usually blocked off this time of year due to snow – definitely down jacket weather. Even within a few hours, in the same day, you’re exposed to a variety of climates here.
While we were waiting for the school children to get their chance at the telescope, Sevan’s 3 daughters - 10, 8 and 7 years old, were experts at making the time go by quickly. They taught me a lot of new games – what are those games called when two people do the patty-cake hand clap thing?? Anyway, they taught me a ton of those games. Then one of my favorites was this other game where you’re 5-ish people and you hold hands in a circle. One person starts and touches one foot to the person’s next to him/her. Then that person has to move his/her foot that was touched to touch one of the feet of the person next to him/her, and it continues. But your foot that wasn’t touched, you have to keep it in the same spot. So, basicly everyone ends up in a giant pretzel, like twister but without the board. It’s really fun. I was the one who fell first, lol.
The weather here has been gorgeous lately. The last 2-3 weeks, it’s been beautiful. It was definitely colder in April and May when I first arrived than it is now, mid-October. Fruits and vegetables are still abundant, I’m really surprised – pomegranates, persimmons, grapes, pumpkins are in season now.
Graduation and Guests
My friend and roommate, TJ, had her family in town this past week. She’s graduating with her MBA from the American University of Armenia. Her mom, dad, sister and nephew were staying with us. So, it was a full house – 6 people – very normal for here. And guests always stay with you. There’s no reason, no such thing as them staying in a hotel. Hotel’s are for tourists. TJ’s nephew was the cutest thing ever, he’s 15 months old. He has these soft curls, huge warm eyes, and he’s cuddly as ever. He touches everything. He falls constantly. He just started walking 3 weeks ago. He loved the washing machine because it was just his height. I looked up at one point to see his little butt sticking out, his head buried in the washing machine. His mom says if anything ever goes missing at home, the first place she looks is the washing machine! Unsurprisingly, he got sick though, he caught the flu and was having a hard time breathing at night. I was soooo worried about him – I got glimpses of what it must feel like to be a mother. I can’t even wrap my head around the amount of energy it must take to do that.
Tj’s sister is SO kind. She’s 33, she’s very beautiful. Her parents are great, there’s a peacefulness about the whole family. Everyone’s comfortable in their own skin, a family of adults, everyone participating in their own way. Her dad, he loves to work with his hands. Somehow within the week that he stayed there, he fixed our sink in the kitchen from dripping, installed a new toilet, got our bathroom door to close properly, and probably fixed a few other things in between that I didn’t catch.
The volunteer group currently is great. I really feel like I have close friends here, and there’s little drama, which is super nice. Talene’s great of course, we were basicly married for a while, especially while in mourning when we lost Amy Hunter to Philli. Shahan’s back from Boston, basicly the most natural integration into society every – I swear he is a part OF Armenia. Then there’s Tracy, my new friend, she’s from Maine. Tracy reminds me so much of Amy, my sister Amy. She talks like her, thinks like her, even moves her mouth in the same way sometimes. It’s really crazy. I feel like I’m hanging out with sister at times.
Armenia’s Charm
In terms of my time here, I have less than a month left of time. It’s crazy to think about the people who came for only 2 months. I had a night of insomnia the night before my 2 month mark – thinking of all that I have left to do, people I want to see, reasons I came here for, etc. Since then, I feel my time has been unwinding little by little. I feel I’m enjoying every minute, at the same time I can’t help but begin to mentally prepare for the next steps personally and professionally - being in Michigan for the holidays, job arrangements, plans for continuing Armenian language classes in the States, buying gifts for people, business ideas, educational ideas, etc.
I’ve planned a small stay-over in London on my way home. I’ll visit with grad school friends there, do a bit of hostelling or couch-surfing. I will also visit Cambridge and Oxford, as I didn’t get to see those places during the semester that I lived there in 2003.
I think and hope that this is just the beginning of my ties here to Armenia. There’s a charm here that’s different than in the States. Things are more simple infrastructure-wise - nothing’s at the level sophistication that the US has, like government paperwork, water systems, anything. Food preparation, agriculture, grocery shopping – these things are more simple. Things are more complex socially, because so many different dynamics because all communication is face-to-face.
The language works with the amount of personal interactions that people have socially. There’s so much more emotion built into the language, creating expressions that just don’t exist in English. There’s so much more to say on this, it’s a whole other blog post, but to describe briefly I’ll give an example. “Tsavet tanem” means “Let me take your pain”, and it is used for anything from “You are driving in the wrong direction, let me take your pain, but you need to turn around and back-track” to little kids running through the park and using it in the midst of the games they’re playing. It makes me see English in a different light – as a functional, business language. English has a gracefulness about it, in that you can say things several different ways, politely, directly, implying something, etc. There are different styles and ways to use the English language to protect you from hurting the person you’re talking to. Everyone’s sensitive, in any culture, because we’re all human. In Armenian, there’s emotional understanding expressions used for comforting, and there’s a cultural norm to argue, react, shout etc. In English, there’s ways to prevent reaction, by saying something indirectly, or using euphemisms, etc.
Anyway, this all results in a difference in relationships. I respect that it’s very different here from the States. I notice I’m very different, and I have a very different mentality. Everyone does from the diaspora, people who lived in Canada, the US, France, England, Lebanon, Iran, Russia – everyone is a product of where they grew up. It’s really fascinating.
Bottom line is that I want to continue to go back and forth between the US and Armenia in my adult life. But right now, I’m just taking one day at a time.